I have the weekend off. And my sis and her hubby are in KK. Still don't have my car. But I'm happy because I can do whatever I want for 48hrs! NO WORK!

Am feeling a little dizzy with happiness that I'm feeling dangerously impulsive.

I feel like getting another tattoo. Even as impulsive as I can get, I'm fussy. Wish my cuz was in KK. He did my 1st tattoo almost 2 years back. I'll ask around... I want something asymmetrical on the back of my left shoulder. I want the whole thing black with just one tiny item, like a flower or a butterfly or maybe a green lizard in a vibrant colour.

So can imagine it now!

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I can't believe I can be so blur when it comes to boy-girl relationship thingy.

For weeks I've been playing some silly cat-and-mouse game with some guy who's absolutely not my type. But I find him cute and immediately drawn to his quirkiness. Sometimes he's responsive, other times he's aloof. Sometimes when I think it's going no where and decide to abandon mission, he'll come right back strongly.

So I'm engaged in a very futile activity.

Then yesterday a colleague remarked that someone has been "teasing" me non-stop. He said it with an evil grin and proceeded to remind me of the morning's events when the supposedly "teasings" took place. He then implied that he had the hots for me.

So that's how guys show their interests?! I'm very disturbed. It's irritatingly disgusting.

I'm absolutely clueless. Aren't people in my age group too old for these sort of games?

I was telling Hema that my approach to the whole relationship thingy is just to be honest and straight to the point.

eg. If the guy ask me why all my sms every evening, then I'll just tell him that I've been thinking about him lately and that I've been missing him, even though we're not a couple.

Is that so very hard?

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The list of our postings after our internship is out, but not finalized. But my name is in the group of doctors who have not been placed. My other colleagues know where they are heading after this.

I've applied for Kota Belud (busiest district), Kudat (beautiful district) and Keningau (best work environment).

But seriously I don't mind anywhere. But I want to work in a hospital, not some polyclinic. Some hospital in some God-forsaken district is fine wth me too.

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Since my sis is not picking up her phone (probably still sleeping), and it's already 10.30am, I'll just take a cab down town and eat and eat and eat and do some shopping.

Bliss.